Sara Rezvi

Image Description: Abu (Father) sits on a bench with his daughters, Sara and Uzma. All are smiling. 1996.

I gave birth to grief last night

A raw and leathery thing

Scaly claws emerging

from a womb

that has never held life

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Where does all this grief go?

How much more

Will continue sliding out of me?

I must count out enough rags

To wipe up all this mess

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The grief undulates

a moving living creature

it is monstrous

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My throat makes

A keening choking noise

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beti

are you lost?

Abu

where did you go?

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artwork by Emma Hawley-Yan

What is fear?
Fear is this snake in my stomach
A roiling, writhing mess
Sinuous anticipation
A measured watching and waiting
The coiled viper waiting to strike

I am exhausted and so worn
I am waiting for the clamor of bells
A hope that the house I have built
Extends beyond these four…

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